Do you know how much I love you? You're the most special thing to me in my life, okay except maybe Mabel but I did only just watch Marley & Me a few days ago and cried like a baby who hasn't been fed for a few days, i.e. a lot. Note; don't forget to feed babies, that's child cruelty.
It kills me to see you like this, you think you can hide the fact that you're upset from me? Don't be stupid. I'm not your best friend for nothing. I can sense it just in the way you say hi to me on msn, that's how well I know you. I feel worthless and pathetic, useless and insignificant. I can't help you, no matter how hard I try you won't ever listen to me, you're too stubborn sometimes, y'know that?
You are beautiful, so beautiful. I'd swap with you if I could, if you're that desperate.
Being like me? Yeah it's not that great. I get walked all over, I get heartbroken and my best friends, yeah I don't think they even care that much anymore. Sure, L and my S do, but as soon as C appears around S, whatever she says goes so maybe it's just L who's there for me apart from you.
K, don't get me started on her. She's self-obsessed and barely listens to me when we're having a normal conversation, and it hurts.
Everything you say about yourself is wrong, you're not boring at all, if you were boring then how come we have such a good time together? How come we almost always end up in fits of laughter? It's mainly you that makes me laugh, not the other way around.
You know when you said you felt like we were friends with totally different people, when I was closer to J&H and you were closer to T&L&M and everyone else? Well you weren't the only one who felt slightly jealous. Truth was I wasn't even really speaking to J, all I had was H and you had this little group of friends, people I only could really have small-talk with, chit-chat and downright boring conversations with.
Earlier on you seemed a little pissed off at me and correct me if I'm wrong but it seemed to be about P? Who else was I supposed to talk to? You were at your sisters, you hadn't told me about that by the way, and I had no-one else to talk to, did you just expect me to sit at home all night twiddling my thumbs? If you did – thanks.
I'm sorry if that sounded pissy, but it did get to me I guess.
It may sound harsh, but don't act like you're the only teenage girl out there who feels the way you do, because I know plenty more who feel the same and I'm one of them. Sure guys look at me, but not all of them. Most of them like to tell me how ugly I am, it's getting hard to brush them off nowadays, to not listen to what they say and just hope and pray that I don't react, don't give them the satisfaction of knowing they've gotten to me. Every girl goes through this, this horrible horrible feeling, find a hobby, something to do? I don't know, my suggestions are hopeless.
I'm telling you now, we're going to be friends forever and I'm going to make sure of it, because losing you would be like dying, that's just how much you mean to me, I swear it. Whenever you need me, whenever you feel like this, just text me, phone me, tell me in some way and I'll listen. I promise.
God I hate it that I cry too much. You're so lucky that you hardly ever cry.
If you want all those things you say you do, then get off your butt and get them. You've got one life, and if you get another well, you have the excuse that you didn't know you'd get another. Don't neglect school, I know it sounds stupid but you're going to need it. I know I'm a bit of a hypocrite right now saying that, but I've vowed that I'm going to try harder now, because otherwise I'll never get anywhere.
All I ask of you is for you to talk to me, when you're angry at me? Yeah just tell me. Shout at me and scream at me if it makes you feel better, I can take it. I might end up crying but I'm too emotional anyway, it won't have been your fault so to speak. Remember, I'm your best friend because you are simply wonderful, there's not anyone that I love more than you, I'd love to be like you, I really really would and I swear I'm not just saying that to make you feel
better. I mean it.
"This life...is what you make it. No matter what you are going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is, you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - They're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up; because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole. And that goes for everything; Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself. Because if you don't, then who will sweetie? So. Keep your head high. Keep your chin up. And most importantly, keep smiling. Because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about." - Marilyn Monroe.
Listen to her, she knew what she was talking about.
I love you A, stop putting yourself down so much, you're the best thing in the world.
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